Wednesday, 07 March 2007

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    I used to write poetry..a lot.
    I used to post them on here.
    I stopped, and deleted them.
    A few people asked me to put them back up.
    So here's all the ones I have saved on my computer..
    Be warned.. There are a lot..
    No order, what so ever.


    Demo
    He holds her hand
    And kisses her cheek
    Praying for once
    He'll find what he seeks
    A love so pure
    A lust so strong
    And he hopes for once
    She won't turn out wrong
    But the love is always tainted
    The lust always weak
    And with every broken heart
    His hope seems to leak
    He always seems to fear her love
    And that it won't come his way
    But every time he sees her smile
    He knows just what to say
    He simply takes a breathe
    Letting the words escape his lips
    "I love you, babe"
    The phrase, it seems to rip
    Down the walls that protect her heart
    Until the day she realized
    They have the perfect start
    So she kisses his cheek
    And holds his hand

    I Dare You
    Let's play truth or dare.
    I dare you to tell the truth.
    Tell me that you like me.
    And kiss me so soft.
    Let's blame it on our lack of love
    Or our love of lust.
    Those sensual grazes
    And those constant stares
    Conscious that we want each other
    And the others want us.
    So we fake our hearts
    And stop our minds.
    Constantly playing these games
    As these games play us
    We want to break out
    And give this a chance
    They loudly whisper and quietly think
    We loudly think and quietly whisper
    Wanting to actually touch
    For our first real release
    But we live for accidental brushes
    And we accidentally live.
    Not ready for them to see
    The way that we secretly are
    Yet we know what they think
    And they think that they know
    What we do when we're alone
    But the feeling is so much deeper
    And our pain becomes our pleasure
    As their pleasure becomes our pain
    Knowing once more
    We will have to face them
    With their all knowing eyes
    Knowing nothing at all
    We fake what we have become
    And ignore the jokes
    As we play truth or dare
    And your eyes dare me to lie.

    Green Eyes
    He hugs her softly
    And whispers in her ear
    Lines he used many times before
    Sweet lies she holds so true
    So as he quickly turns away
    Green eyes start to swell
    She sees the chance always imagined
    Her quiet wish, her last hope
    But deep down she knows
    This is just some fun for him
    The green eyes start to hide
    As she takes a slow breath
    Watching him move on to the next
    She knows she's not the last
    To fall for something that isn't true
    To feel for his façade
    It doesn't lessen her heart ache
    As she watches them interact
    His soft touch here
    Her delicate voice there
    She waits for the day
    That those damned blue eyes
    Won't get what she wants
    The day damned blue eyes
    Will finally fall apart
    She smiles and waves
    As she leaves lust filled eyes behind
    It's at just the right moment
    That tears fall from old green eyes

    Love.Lust.Lies.
    He begs to touch
    As she moves away
    She wants this more than he could know
    But she still can't help her words
    She claims morals have gotten her case
    As she slowly readjusts
    And brushes through her hair
    Her ethics are long past gone
    Yet her innocence still stays
    He knows full well the truth
    And that she's just afraid
    Her trust was hard to gain
    Her love even trickier
    So he waits ever patiently
    For the day in which she'll understand
    This is no game for him
    And everything he says is true
     But he gives her the space she desperately craves
    And watches as she goes back on with her day
    Knowing completely she's the only he'll ever love
    Not knowing she's loved others before

    Honest Lies
    His honest eyes
    Are telling flat out lies
    My lonely heart
    Chooses to believe
    I've been here before
    And my head is still sore
    From the thoughts of how
    It simply can't be
    But we play these games
    As our relationships the same
    So my greatest gift
    Is the ability to tease
    I watch your face
    As you slowly trace
    Touching her lightly
    As her whole body shakes
    You're using her to get to me
    Even though I pretend not to see
    I walk out of the room
    Feeling completely composed
    Until he walks by
    And his eyes lie

    She Won
    She falls to her knees
    As he tries to ease
    Her ever growing destine
    And quickly tries to ease her pain
    But as her emotions start to break
    He has to try to fix his mistake
    But he no longer has any hope
    Because now she just needs to cope
    He should have known this would kill
    But for some reason he couldn't help himself still
    He wants to apologize admit he was wrong
    To earn back her trust, he will work for so long
    He sits down to rest as she continues to cry
    Realizing now, how stupid was his lie
    He sobs wishing there was some way to go back
    Even though he knows his will power would still lack
    He grabs her wrists and screams to forget
    But for once in her life, she just wants to sit
    She stands in his face, and hopes he can see
    That this is exactly what he's making her be
    Her face turns to stone
    As she uses that harsh tone
    She yells back now that they are done
    His head starts to hang, knowing the fight was won

    For Keeps.
    He kisses her softly,
    As she holds his cheek.
    Knowing this time,
    They are playing for keeps.
    He hold her hand,
    As she whispers in his ear.
    Trying this time,
    To disregard her fear.
    He pulls her close,
    As her legs sit on his lap.
    Thinking this time,
    Her judgment hasn't lapsed.
    He stares her in the eyes,
    As she fears him moving away.
    Understanding this time,
    That he is here to stay.
    He makes his moves,
    As she starts to shake.
    Not sure this time,
    How much she can take.
    He talks so simply,
    As she listens in close.
    Content this time,
    She got what she wanted most.
    He smiles at her sweetly,
    As she giggles on her own.
    Assuming this time,
    She won't be left alone.
    He lusts quite freely,
    As she trusts so pure.
    Happy this time,
    That she feels so sure.
    So she pulls him close,
    As he whispers in her ear..

    Him.
    He was everything she wanted
    With a glimpse of even more
    She's been quoted saying he's perfect
    And he'll never act like those before
    She finds herself watching his face
    Then stares him in the eyes
    She's afraid they'll be filled with regrets
    And all those dreaded lies
    But honesty seems to have gotten his case
    Because by now he has to know
    That misleading her gained him nothing
    Except the greatest of sorrows
    So he hugs her tight and promises simply this again
    That it will never be repeated
    That he will stop, that he can
    She tells him for the last time
    Speaking only the truth
    "If you hurt me again"
    She says practically through her tooth
    "I'll be the one to lose it all
    Everything I need
    While you'll be left alone
    With the past you chose to lead
    I hope you finally realize
    That made me feel like hell
    And I won't buy the next lie
    That you try to sell"
    She tells him of the love she fells
    As she starts to cry
    For the first time in her life
    She believed a boys stupid lie
    So she pulls him closer praying he will only stay
    She finds herself quietly hoping
    That he's done pushing her away
    He's everything she wants
    With a glimpse of even more
    She knows now that he is perfect
    And will no longer act like before

    Indestructible. Unbreakable.
    I have fallen
    fallen hard
    As you broke
    broke the indestructible
    You ignored
    ignored my feelings
    Sending your lust
    lust for others
    As fast and far
    far away as you could
    Trying to save
    save yourself
    Knowing that
    that I could heal you
    And slowly fix
    fix the unbreakable
    Parts of you..

    Love Lacks.
    Friendships Fade
    on this
    Darkening Day
    as our
    Love Lacks
    your Crude Comments
    only
    Make Marks
    on my
    Broken Body
    useless
    Solemn Stories
    make you
    Rightfully Regret
    your
    Phony Phrases
    but a
    Peculiar Promise
    sticks in
    Melancholy Minds.
    "i won't ever hurt you"
    He Horribly
    lied

    Absolutely
    cold hands
    cold heart
    loss of words
    loss of art
    feeling of hate
    feeling of relief
    change of mind
    change of belief
    never starts
    never ends
    always lost
    always mends
    broken promises
    broken lies
    forgettable life
    forgettable ties
    I shall leave
    I shall miss
    absolutely nothing
    absolutely this

    Loss of Hope.
    For a lack of better words
    For a lack of better actions
    I'm here, yelling I'm sorry
    Not really knowing what else to do
    You stare at me
    Wondering what exactly I'm thinking
    But the problem is
    I'm honestly not sure
    My mind has been begging for sleep
    As my heart can no longer bare it
    I compromise by staring up
    Trying to find the good in all of this
    But ending up empty handed
    My problems have confronted me
    As I tried to walk away
    Leaving me useless and alone
    I have lost all hope.

    Forget.
    I fell for him hard,
    even though he seem to disregard
    any words I would ever say
    and he slowly started to push me away
    I couldn't seem to bare
    the way only  his stare
    didn't hold the same look
    the one that he took
    and now only gives her
    today, it's all lost in a blur
    of those overused words
    I guess the idea was completely absurd
    To assume I would be chosen first
    but my love life has long been cursed
    by a slowly breaking heart
    before anything even starts
    but I thought maybe he could save
    and give me something I desperately crave
    My long held idea of love
    something I seem to have learned from above
    but I realize that was all just bullshit
    and I'm somehow just a love misfit
    So I will no longer worry about the way it used to be
    because all his lies were quite off key
    I'm going to be happy with the way it is
    and I'll no longer reminisce
    about him or the lie he became
    As I slowly forget his name.

    Done.
    A crush
    A lush
    A quick little touch
    A lie
    A cry
    A small "hope you die"
    A fear
    A tear
    A loss of what is dear
    A mope
    A cope
    A failure of all hope
    A tell
    A yell
    A girl who slowly fell
    A mind
    A bind
    A look between the lined
    A fake
    An ache
    A game of give and take
    A friend
    A trend
    A long awaited end

    Oh no.
    My loss of speech
    Keeps you out of my reach
    Never really knowing what to do
    But somehow I can find a way through
    This never ending conversation
    Causes us even more flirtation
    Leaving us both lost and confused
    And me even more overused
    Just trying to find my way out
    Of something that has caused me much doubt
    But as you turn to look away
    I figure out, to my dismay
    That I can no longer do this without you
    And I am not wise enough to
    Think totally with my mind
    I have become so blind
    Of what we used to be
    And the way you ignore my plea
    To move on to something new
    And I hate what you have turned into
    So I will just pretend not to see
    The way you've moved on from me
    And I will be stuck here alone
    As you're off with someone unknown
    I leave you with this last line
    That despite your best efforts, I will be fine.

    You're no hero.
    i wish i could go back to grade school,
    when I was still able to look up to you.
    but those days are long gone,
    and now, you are looked down on.
    you choose her over me..
    which was painful enough as it was.
    but then you screamed,
    screamed at me,
    for the things I could not control
    assuming I to was against you
    but you didn't even wait for my response.
    As the tears fell down
    you just didn't look
    because if you thought
    you would have realized
    you where the reason for all my pain

    So happy.
    I'm so sick of this life I lead
    There is so much more that I need
    I know somehow I could get away
    But for some unknown reason I stay
    just hoping something will change
    but all that is out of my range
    I'm still stuck as me,
    even though this is never what I wanted to be
    my sarcastic remarks hide
    everything I am so afraid to confide
    I just feel so lost of hope
    though I would never allow myself to mope
    I have become completely fake
    This was the only life I could make
    I must make the best of what I got
    because it's the way I have always been taught
    even if it's not what you feel
    feelings were never a part of this deal
    so I'll stay all alone
    using my angry tone
    and staying completely tame
    I know this will all stay the same

    Letter.
    If I wrote you a letter,
    explaining everything I was,
    everything I became,
    would you bother to even glance at it?
    If I sang you a song,
    asking for a little bit of hope,
    a little bit of saving,
    would you be willing to give it?
    Right now,
    I don't believe you would.
    Right now,
    I don't believe I could..

    Anything I say,
    never explains anything,
    Everything I try to do,
    ends up messing me up more.
    I try to let everything out,
    I try to get myself away,
    but it won't happen,
    I won't let myself go.

    This isn't who I planned on becoming,
    and you were never suppose to be hurt
    but emotions took over
    and we both lost control
    of what never should have been.

    I dreamt of something better,
    for you, but never I
    but it didn't came to pass
    and we both got stuck in this town
    trying to find our way out
    Fighting to get our way out.
    I prayed for something better,
    and kid, you gotta believe me,
    I would do anything to change
    the past and myself

    Done With Words.
    My words to live by,
    see those, they will never die.
    I hope you understand your mistakes
    and can live with the choices that you make.
    Cause darlin' if I were you,
    I believe that I would never get through..
     
    All the open windows
    and closed doors,
    never left an opportunity for improvement
    and the hopeless prayers,
    that where never sent
    left you cold and lonely..
     
    Wondering why,
    these words never seem to die
    is because they hold truth
    without them,
    you would be the same
    never living on a whim
    and taking life as it is..
     
    You where never one
    to try and change the world
    Regardless of your beliefs
    or if you would have failed
    the same old patterns
    started to fall
    and sadly, our problems never resolved..
     
    Carelessly falling into your past
    with nothing more then the signs of pain
    We would laugh.
    Wondering "how the hell everything changed."
    Since your life has been turned upside down
    and nothing is the way it sounds
    We ask "Why life has to be so hard?"
    Knowing the answer
    was always us..

    Summer.
    Oh what a summer.
    Broken hearts
    Lives torn apart
    A deadly car crash
    Evil backlash
    Loss of hope
    Kids just trying to cope
    Ambulance scares
    Unhealthy love affairs
    Late night phone calls
    Horrible downfalls
    The end of this season
    Is giving me a new reason
    To actually try and live
    And slowly letting me forgive
    I just sit and pray
    For there to be a new day

    Stars.
    Staying up late
    Just to watch the sunrise
    As it pushed my night away
    I can't help but wonder why
    The day always seems to break
    Clearing my smashed heart
    With the pieces posing as stars
    Though you never seem to look up
    To see just what you did to me
    You're head seems to always hang
    Twice as low as mine

    Lacking the Best.
    I need to find a way to clear my head
    because everything you have ever said
    is playing all the way through
    which makes me wonder what to do
    because I always feel so stressed
    yes, I know I'm not the best
    that you could ever get
    now in my head it's all starting to fit
    the fact that you wanted me to be something I'm not
    to bad I wouldn't and that I fought
    it was because you really didn't care
    whenever I talked you just gave me a blank stare
    and now I feel like I have been left so cold
    so for once in my life, I'm going to act bold
    and end by saying simply this:
    I'm the best you'll never get.

    3 Words.
    And in his eyes
    The world just came crashing down
    All the doors he had opened
    Now slammed shut in his face
    All his unanswered questions
    Have vowed to stay that way
    His last trace of hope
    And chance to get away
    Were lost in three difficult words
    Words which seemed to flow so easily
    Out of her mouth
    To the knife in his heart
    Just three simply words
    Will change their lives forever

    Eric.
    He's trying to pull
    pull her close
    'Cause he kept on pushing
    Pushing her away
    So now he's ready
    ready for this
    And he won't let it fade
    fade to nothing
    He promises her love
    love like no other
    And that he'll prove
    prove his words
    So she trusts
    trusts him deeply
    And makes plans
    plans to be his
    She dies to be held
    held in his arms
    As he just wants
    wants her heart
    So they fall even deeper
    deeper for each other
    They give themselves
    Themselves to one another
    And hope for the best
    best of it all
    While knowing that there will never
    never be an end
    They realize 6 months
    6 months is nothing
    Compared to forever
    forever isn't long enough

    She's Not Worth Changing For.
    He was everything she wanted
    With a glimpse of even more
    She's been quoted saying he's perfect
    And he'll never act like those before
     
    She finds herself watching his face
    Then stares him in the eyes
    She's afraid they'll be filled with regrets
    And all those dreaded lies
    But honesty seems to have gotten his case
    Because by now he has to know
    That misleading her gained him nothing
    Except the greatest of sorrows
    So he hugs her tight and promises simply this again
    That it will never be repeated
    That he will stop, that he can
     
    She tells him for the last time
    Speaking only the truth
    "If you hurt me again"
    She says practically through her tooth
    "I'll be the one to lose it all
    Everything I need
    While you'll be left alone
    With the past you chose to lead
    I hope you finally realize
    That made me feel like hell
    And I won't buy the next lie
    That you try to sell"
     
    She tells him of the love she fells
    As she starts to cry
    For the first time in her life
    She believed a boys stupid lie
    So she pulls him closer praying he will only stay
    She finds herself quietly hoping
    That he's done pushing her away
     
    He's everything she wants
    With a glimpse of even more
    She knows now that he is perfect
    And will no longer act like before.

    Lies Flowed From His Mouth.
    She holds on tight
    and promise to never let go
    she feels in her heart
    this relationship shall grow.
    He talks of the future
    and forgets of the past
    knowing that nothing before
    is like what will last.
    She hugs him close
    and breathes in his scent
    remembering the night
    that it all started in a tent.
    He looks in her eyes
    as she slowly starts to smile
    they both understand
    that they be a "they" for quite awhile.
    She laughs and says "always"
    as he quickly responds with "forever"
    both completely seeing
    they will let this end never.

    He Never Even Mattered.
    She closes her mind
    completely afraid.
    What if he's just another,
    that only cares about getting laid?

    But she trusts what she feels
    and believes his every word.
    What if her power to read the truth,
    has gotten completely blurred?

    He's got the honest eyes
    those that could easily pull her in.
    What if he's got those dirty intentions,
    that could effortlessly lead her to sin?

    She knows exactly what she wants
    yet still holds confidence in her gut.
    What if he only cares,
    about creating his own smut?

    She looks into his soul
    and purely judges his aim.
    What if what he's shown himself to be,
    isn't really a part of a game?

    So she let's herself fall
    with only one question to remain:
    What if in his mind,
    he fears exactly the same?

    Distance.
    he hugs her tight around the waist
    pulling her close
    leaving no space.
    though their cities are quite far apart
    their weekends are known
    as their perfect start.
    her chances to see him keep growing so slight
    so she finds herself praying
    that she gets at least one night.
    She's waiting for her chance to be wrapped up in his hold
    constantly ignoring
    what they keep being told.
    their friends want to know why they would want to date
    they live so far away
    they live in different states.
    but the butterflies she gets when she sees his face
    with the way her mind stops
    and how her heart starts to race.
    so the texts are the connection to what shouldn’t be lost
    and the relationship seems to beat
    the long distance cost.

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