So, John and I had our first real alone time, in our whole relationship this weekend. We got the chance to stay at a family members apartment, just us. Most of the time we have together is spent with family and friends, since we have no choice but to stay at each others houses. Sure, we had spent nights in each others arms before, but never had anything all too ourselves. Either his siblings or my friends have always been around. It caused a major realization for me though. I saw, that this is what I want, more than anything. I want to be able to wake up with him next to me, just because he can. To fall asleep in his arms, whenever I feel like it. Having always been long distance with him, this is something I could never take for granted. For the first time in my life, I realize I’m completely comfortable, and totally myself around someone. In his eyes, I’m perfect, and in mine, so is he.
I can’t wait until the day he moves to Milwaukee to come to school here. I can’t wait until I can see him, almost whenever I want.
John bought me concert tickets, and decided to surprise me with them and staying alone. It was the first time someones did something just for me. Just to make me feel special. I don't think he'll ever understand how much it meant to me, that he tried so hard to plan this out for me, even if it didn't work out exactly the way he wanted it too. It was just the fact he wanted to do that for me, just the fact we were together, was perfect.
To put it simply, I've never been so happy, even when we were just getting lost in Chicago. Even when my feet are killing me, and we had been walking for hours, I still had a smile on my face. Just for being there with him. It's all that I really need to be happy, a relationship has never been that simple before.
PS. Random pictures from walking around Chicago, waiting for my bus.Or go here to see all my new and old pictures from that cityDon't judge the pictures too harshly, just taken with my old, crap quality camera,
didn't want to risk taking my good one to Illinois when it was predicted rain all weekend.
Our new best friend, who couldn't eat a full cheerio, I was nice enough to squish them for him
After John tried to give me leaves with a sad face and "...but I picked this for you", he eventually handed me an actual flower. I think it's still sitting on my kitchen table, haha.