Wednesday, 04 November 2009

  • Soo little time.

    PS. ONE DAY WE'LL LIVE IN A HOUSE FULL OF PETS:


    Sorry xanga, my life has been too busy for you.
    Most of my time is spent doing homework,
    with the breaks in between for my friends
    and boyfriend.

    I'm 20 years old,
    and I never thought my life would be so...boring.
    Thanks college.

    Anyway, when I get the chance,
    I'll write things of value.
    Until then,
    I'll be posting photography,
    and other odds and ends that amuse me.
    Or maybe other things,
    that my boyfriend does
    when he comes on my xanga.

    Now, I'm off to write another paper.

Monday, 26 October 2009

Tuesday, 20 October 2009

  • I'm in love, I'm annoying.

    And for the first time in my life, I really know I’m in love. It’s ridiculous, but it scares me. I’m putting all my faith, all my trust and all my love, in one other person but that’s not where the fear lies. What terrifies me is that I’m not afraid by it all. For once in my life, I feel safe. And the truth is that, that is what has put some sort of fear in me, the fact that I’m not afraid. The fact that I know John loves me as much as I love him, that I can count on him, for anything, everything and the little shit in-between. The fact that, for once in my life, I plan on having him around and I know he thinks the same. I think about next semester, and can’t help the excitement that builds in my stomach knowing he’s going to be here. I think about my future, and I still see him in it, us being as happy as ever. I never actually believed anyone would stay around, that I was worth anyone staying around, but somehow, he keeps proving otherwise to me.

Monday, 19 October 2009

Thursday, 08 October 2009

  • Currently
    Ghost Hunters: Season 4, Pt. 2
    By Jason Hawes, Steve Gonsalves, Grant Wilson
    see related

    Still been nowhere.

    It's been how many months since this original post: [I've been nowhere] and I've realized nothing has changed. I fear it never will.
    I haven't traveled anywhere new, nor have any of the plans I've tried to make seem like they will actually happen. I fear that if I fail to get these experiences now, I never will. That I'm going to get stuck in this area, and barely ever get that chance to leave. If I get the chance to go somewhere now, even if I never really get out of the Midwest, I'll at least know what else is out there. I'll have been somewhere.
    Now don't get me wrong, I've been on plenty vacations, just always in Northern Wisconsin, or to the same states. I do love those travels, but I'd just like to see more.
    It seems that those I try to get to come with me don't care about it, simply because they've already been other places. It's not special or exciting for them anymore. While, I can't even come up with where I'd want to go, because I haven't seen enough to even imagine it.
    I guess I just want the chance to see random places, with people I care about.

Wednesday, 07 October 2009

  • Currently
    Direction
    By The Starting Line
    What You Want
    see related

    I'm so overly cute.

    So, John and I had our first real alone time, in our whole relationship this weekend. We got the chance to stay at a family members apartment, just us. Most of the time we have together is spent with family and friends, since we have no choice but to stay at each others houses. Sure, we had spent nights in each others arms before, but never had anything all too ourselves. Either his siblings or my friends have always been around. It caused a major realization for me though. I saw, that this is what I want, more than anything.  I want to be able to wake up with him next to me, just because he can. To fall asleep in his arms, whenever I feel like it. Having always been long distance with him, this is something I could never take for granted. For the first time in my life, I realize I’m completely comfortable, and totally myself around someone. In his eyes, I’m perfect, and in mine, so is he.
    I can’t wait until the day he moves to Milwaukee to come to school here. I can’t wait until I can see him, almost whenever I want.
    John bought me concert tickets, and decided to surprise me with them and staying alone. It was the first time someones did something just for me. Just to make me feel special.  I don't think he'll ever understand how much it meant to me, that he tried so hard to plan this out for me, even if it didn't work out exactly the way he wanted it too. It was just the fact he wanted to do that for me, just the fact we were together, was perfect.
    To put it simply, I've never been so happy, even when we were just getting lost in Chicago. Even when my feet are killing me, and we had been walking for hours, I still had a smile on my face. Just for being there with him. It's all that I really need to be happy, a relationship has never been that simple before.

    PS. Random pictures from walking around Chicago, waiting for my bus.
    Or go here to see all my new and old pictures from that city
    Don't judge the pictures too harshly, just taken with my old, crap quality camera,
    didn't want to risk taking my good one to Illinois when it was predicted rain all weekend.


    Our new best friend, who couldn't eat a full cheerio, I was nice enough to squish them for him

    After John tried to give me leaves with a sad face and "...but I picked this for you", he eventually handed me an actual flower. I think it's still sitting on my kitchen table, haha.

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